Tonight is a new moon in Virgo and the energy it brings will set the tone for healing, letting go of what no longer serves us, more self-love and forgiveness. I don’t know about you but the last few weeks for me have been about letting go of what I’ve outgrown. Unconsciously I always feel when it’s time to move on but when something feels safe it becomes a comfort zone that is hard to leave or disturb. Even though it’s not peaches and cream all the time the false sense of security and routine it gives me soothes my insecurity of what the future might bring. Which reminds me of the following quote…
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.” – Marianne Williamson
For the last two years I combined a part time job at a webshop with my blog. And although it has been wonderful my initial plan was to leave after one year. I guess the comfort of a steady, monthly salary was too safe which made me settle into a regular job even though it’s not what my heart desires. My soul yearns to express itself creatively, help and inspire others and making my dreams come true in the most various ways. By hiding behind the safety of my part time job I don’t have to take risks and take more responsibility on than I should for now. I want and long for more but I guess a part of me feels safe hiding in the shadow instead of fully showing myself in the light.
But as life always does when it’s really time to let go things get harder. Colleagues become annoying, charged discussions take place, remarks are made, things shift in such a way just to rub it in your face that it’s time to leave. And I’m not complaining about this because the Universe has the tendency to take on the role of the tough parent when I refuse to listen to my gut which was screaming months ago to leave and do what I really want. So even though this transition is quite chaotic I’m grateful for what it has taught me and for reminding me to always followi my intuition and heart’s desire.
Out with the Old, In with the New
When you let go of what no longer serves you (physically or mentally) you create a vacuum, a space that can be filled by something new and better. I’ve seen this many times in my life and even though I have the memories to back me up letting go in the first place is scary because it’s a pure act of faith and sometimes I’m insecure and don’t know what the future will bring or if I’m just being silly.
But how can following my heart be silly? Even if it doesn’t make sense to others or myself most of the times, it does boost my confidence and by doing what my heart tells me I demonstrate that I love and trust myself more than any positive or negative outer circumstances and fears.
So when you’ve decided what to let go of, what do you want to have instead? Where can you create a new beginning that will make you happy and make your soul sing?
Thanks for reading!