“I heard a voice that told me I’m essential
How all my fears are limiting my potential
Said it’s time to step into the light and
Use every bit of the power I have inside”
I’ve been feeling very good about myself lately. Nothing externally has changed (yet) but my belief in myself and my intuition is strong and on the rise creating magic everywhere I go. Whereas before I was confused and in a blur things are starting to get more clear as I now see why some patterns repeat in my life and I’m finally starting to learn the lesson from it!
Self Doubt Creates Setbacks
Self doubt is fear’s nasty little cousin and when they take hold of you the beauty of what could be and manifest gets tainted. My intuition has been strong since I was a child and has developed in many areas but when it comes to my relationships I have never believed in myself that much.
The first range of lessons featured unhealthy friendships where my so called friends were jealous of my success. They were so nice in my face and even though my intuition warned me I wanted to make sure I wasn’t making a mistake and went against my inner voice. People always reveal their true colors eventually and as time passed by so did they showing me my intuition was right all along.
I’m still in the midst of unravelling my second range of lessons and this concerns men. When I was younger I fell in love with a guy and was sure he felt the same way about me. Eventually he chose somebody else and this left me doubting about myself and after that my intuition never really recovered from that blow (until now) leaving me very insecure about what I thought I’d perceive with guys. This first guy lived abroad and ended up confessing afterwards he chose the other girl because she lived there and there was no future for us even though he wanted to. This created a lot of self doubt and made me hungry for lots of signs and confirmations to know a guy really likes me. And men have given me many signs over and over again but since I was too afraid to believe and make another mistake I dismissed it as my fantasy.
Again in retrospect my first gut feeling was right. The guy did like me but my self doubt took the best of me blowing (probably) many chances to a loving relationship. Recently I was faced with a similar situation. It’s easy to trust and believe your intuition when what you see matches your gut feeling but it’s a lot harder when what you see contradicts your intuition. Contrary to my past experiences this time I decided to chose for myself, my intuition and believe that my feeling is right.
Magic Happens Outside of Your Comfort Zone
This is a major step out of my comfort zone because fear and insecurity pop up often times but the serendipities (signs from the Universe and happy accidents) have been too many to ignore. Whenever I follow my heart into an unknown direction, these signs are/were always there to comfort me and assure me that things will happen in divine timing with a little patience and faith.
And given I’m still afraid and insecure the signs are numerous, giving me informations I need right now to improve myself and presenting me with new opportunities I hadn’t considered before.
Just Do You
And India Arie’s song was one of those signs. When I went to youtube it was one of the suggested videos and her inspiring lyrics hit home. My fears are limiting my potential and in the past when I felt I was wrong I would always beat myself up making me lose potential and hide my inner light and strength. Not this time! Even though I don’t know what’s waiting for me I do know that my time has arrived to step up my game, make myself be seen, shine my light and inspire others to do the same.
I have faith and trust that everything will work out for the best and that everything I need is on its way to me!